This, in an internet wrapped nutshell, will be my life and how my brain works regurgitated through my fingers onto this screen. i find myself at a cross roads in life, Not the first time that has happened, and the way life goes, I'm sure it will not be the last. i don't want this to be like a live journal (i dont want to be a whiny 14 year old girl), instead i want to spark a conversation.. If i am completely honest, conflict terrifies me, but debate.... Debate i live for.
Crossroads are an interesting thing. Tales are told about making deals with the devil at a Crossroads, songs have been written. i stand here, metaphorically of course, lost and alone, the only thought in my head is... Fuck, what do i do next? There are three ways this could go.
Option #1: i could give up, feel sorry for me. This seems droll, and kind of boring. As an added bonus, i have already been down that road... Nah, not that road, you don't want to go down that road. (imagine a heavy drawl and a slouching face. i don't need any dead dogs coming back to life...) So option #1 is off the table.
Option #2: I could stay the course. By that i mean i could march forward, down the same path that lays behind me. This is an option. my life is not terribly uncomfortable. I work, i eat. i have a bed, i am in many senses blessed.... but, and there is always a but, something is not right. I sometimes feel out of place in my own skin. Maybe it is because i am getting older, and i would like to think more mature, anyhow i think there are things going on in the world (blood moons, a failing economy, a broken health care system, wars sprouting up all over the world, etc, etc.... the list goes on and on...) that need to be talked about. we are torn as a nation, and as a people. What blows my mind is that no one is talking about all these things in a civil way. To quote the Chili Peppers "... destruction breeds Creation..." I want, no i need to create something.
Which brings me to Option #3: this is my personal favorite, and if you have not already guessed, the one that i have decided to go with. I am gonna hit restart. I am going to find out who i am, and why i am here. these are big question, and i hope they have big answers. over the next thirty days i going to post what i believe and why i believe it. There will be stories of my pain, and my pleasure. Stories of my success and my failure, of which there are many. I want to learn, and i want to move forward. I want to know who i am. So let's talk Politics and Religion, let's talk drugs and alcohol, let's talk sex and diarrhea. Let no subject be to big or small. Into the rabbit hole i fall...;D
-Micah.
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